Recently I got in touch with my 4th cousin on Facebook after 10 years of not contacting each other. When I say 4th cousin, it means that we were related by blood more than 4 generations ago. Due to the family-connection within my grandparents’ village, any one from the same village is considered “family”. =)
I obviously told her about Koala and Baby Roo right away! She was like, “Really can’t imagine you are a Mother now.”
Well, I can’t imagine I’m a Mother also! Me? I have overprotective parents and sister and husband. I was always well taken care of. I never needed to grow up. I just need to study, graduate from college, and get a job. Hubby and I love kids. So we got married and have kids. Bam! I’m a Mother!
Really? Am I really a Mother? My life certainly changed after becoming a Mother, no doubt about that. Light out before 9pm, no TV, no junk food, no instant noodle, chemical phobia. What is a movie theatre? Disneyland is no longer a place where I try to get on as many ride as possible, catch the parade, and decide rather to leave before midnight. Disneyland is now a place where I try to get Koala to stay through 2 rides, call it a success, and head home.
It’s no longer me who has emotional meltdowns; the one who does complaining; nor the one who annoys Hubby until he jumps up and down and throws his arms in the air. Koala has this “responsibility” now.
Still, a mother? I giggle and laugh while Koala has her emotional meltdowns, complains, and annoys Hubby. I talk to Koala like an adult. I am still very persistent, especially with Koala. I still need hugs and kisses to feel better. The hugs and kisses no longer come from Hubby, but from Koala now… even better: I can get it 24/7!
I guess my daily routine and part of my personality show a motherly side: preparing breakfast and lunch; feeding milk and potty-training. I’m a lot more protective of Koala, Hubby, and myself. My caring nature and patience show through Koala.
Oh well, I AM A MOTHER no matter if I seem like a mother or not. I no longer just live for myself. I live and stay healthy for Hubby, Koala, and Baby Roo. I guess that’s the only feeling needed to make a person feel like a Mother.